Calyn's thots :)

Tim said i am usually very random. So i should just blog my random thoughts on stm... so here goes:

Give thanks to God for making a way our for the team in our workshops and our ministering nights, for opening the hearts of the people, for breaking the language and culture barrier and for helping us to minister and be relevant to them. Alot of impromptu activities and sharing as well as sensing of the ground and respond to changes and things. Things are dynamic and God was working through the different things that we do.

I feel very humbled by the whole experience and also very refreshed and ministered. Especially the time spent with Julian. He shared alot during our lunches and when we take the tuk tuk with him. Although this is a trip to bless and minister to people, i am so blessed and ministered myself. The past few days renewed some of my convictions and also to revisit my values and build upon my faith and perspectives.

Will just share my thoughts generally for now. Will need to think through more :) Julian has shared so much with us and imparted so much spirit to us that made me ponder about my r/s with God and about my vision and passion. What am i living for? Do i really love God to the extent of giving and surrending everything to Him and what does it mean to seek His kingdom first?

Tmr will be conducting another workshop with weiling and thurs we will be having our outreach event. Will be preparing for the skit! Pray that it will be relevant and that it will open their hearts to Tim's sharing. There will be 100 youths :) exciting.

Starting to see more and more why I am here for STM and I am so glad and blessed that i am here. So humbled to be used by God too. Though i ve so many weaknesses and have pride in my life, God still chose to use me. I am also very blessed by the cambodians here. To hear them share about their lives, to receive their spirit of thanksgiving and faith. So blessed.

I have been praying for God to humble me more and more through this trip and that i must become smaller that Christ becomes bigger. I am thankful that God is growing and pruning my inner man and redefining my convicitions and values and i will continue to allow God to do His work in me. No matter what, never say quite. Whatever that i am going through, be it struggles internally or external challenges, never say quit but to stand firm in my faith and hold on to the truth and the values that God has established in my life. God is indeed doing something new in my heart :) I am so thankful to God for these experiences!

tt's all folks, gg to plan workshops with weiling le :) Continue to keep us in prayer for discerning heart and spirit :)